How many times can your heart break?How much is the truth you just don't want to see or admit?How many times can I be manipulated? How many times can I fail me?

At the movies,I expected the boys to sit together.But for little miss to choose to sit alone 3 rows away,well it makes me feel lonely and I just want to cry.

Enough

It has been a long and germ filled weekend. I had a rhinoscope follwed by a severe inflammation of the sinus'. Next, came the infection and now as par for normal, the bronchitis is setting in.

A lot happened over the past few days, but I can't type it all on my phone so it will have to hold.

Tonight I realized why this breakup has been so hard for me to let go (besides the 14yrs and two kids).

Logically, I know Big B is an alcoholic. Emotionally, I can't help but feeling like I failed. Failed me, the kids, the family, and HIM.

Why aren't I enough? Why aren't I enough for you to fight for? to want to try? to love? to have and to hold?

Why aren't I enough? is my heart to black? to kind? do I talk too much? ask too much?

Why aren't I enough?

Logically, I know the bottle will always win. Try telling that to my heart.

My Bro-I-L is in ICU, please keep him in your prayers. Things r better than first thought, but it is a brain injury so its very serious. Thank u. Much love.